This post is dedicated to my dearest man (this is the first time I admit someone as a man, a truly gentle man) in the whole world (hope it's not too soon to say this that you're getting scared of me).. as you wish me to explore my deepest heart, listen carefully to what it's trying to tell, and reveal it to the world via this very simple blog.. so here it goes, babe! :)

For my dearest man,
I know I might disappoint you when you know that this is such a very simple note. It's not a beautiful poem you wish me to author. It doesn't even rhyme. This is just a simple way for me to speak how I feel about you, starting from the surface of my mind until the deepest of my heart

~ You are good looking, you really are.. You get me stunned ~
~ Among all guys' smiles I see, your smile is the sweetest and it catches my eyes most of the time ~
~ You smell awesome.. I don't think it comes from your perfume.. Don't ask me, I have no idea either ~
~ When you're drunk, you may seem dumb but in a cute way.. Please don't get drunk too often :) ~
~ O yeah, the way you express your ideas and present it in front of us.. It shows how hard and responsibly you do your jobs ~
~ Actually, it's the way you talk.. Simply shows that you're so polite and gentle ~
~ Do you have any idea why I laugh myself hard seeing the way you choose your words? YOU ARE SO DAMN FUNNY.. Just admit it, you're talented in a special way.. You know what I mean :P ~
~ You're the coolest man I've ever known for the way you react, baby ~
~ You're the most comforting person I ever lean on for the way you listen to me and hug me when I'm about to cry  ~
~  Helpful, diligent, and friendly.. Yes, dear. That voting says the truth.. ~
~  When you sing to me that 'Untitled' song by Maliq & D' Essential, oh God, I swear my heart almost stops beating.. ~
~  The way you reveal your feelings towards me in a very weird and unique way, it makes me undeniably happy.. ~

~ errr... ~

Okay, I must admit now. I'm getting confused about what more to say.. 
Could you please see my heart or simply see and feel what my heart is trying to tell you?

I'm just so in love with you, my dearest man..Happiness just easily happens when I'm with you... And I'm so glad to know that every little thing you do could simply drive me crazy about you..

well, I heart you, my dear man.
at least now you know that you finally succeed doing what this quote says “Hidup itu menjadi lebih berarti saat hidup itu bisa memberikan hidup kepada kehidupan yang lain.”.  :)

Gw mau mencoba mendefinisikan perasaan kecewa dr sudut pandang gw:


- Kecewa muncul saat kau menggantungkan harapanmu pada seseorang dan dia tahu kau sangat berharap padanya tapi secara disengaja atau tidak dia membuyarkan semua harapanmu. Perasaan kau saat itu adalah : kecewa stadium akhir, menangis, dan menyesali kebodohanmu karena meletakkan harapanmu pada orang yang tidak tepat. -


- Kecewa adalah suatu perasaan yang memenuhi ruang di dadamu sehingga engkau merasa sesak ketika semua janji yang diucapkan kepada dirimu hanyalah kata-kata tidak berarti yang keluar dari lidah yang tak bertulang, ketika janji itu diingkari keberadaannya, ketika janji hanyalah omong kosong belaka. Perasaanmu saat itu adalah : marah dan kesal, lalu kepercayaanmu terhadap orang itu dengan cepatnya pecah berkeping-keping atau malah menghilang bagai asap. -


- Kecewa adalah suatu reaksi yang sulit untuk dihindari, begitu mudah untuk mencuat ke permukaan ketika kenyataan yang terjadi tidak sesuai dengan rencana, harapan, dan keinginan kita sebagai manusia -- yang walaupun keberadaannya disertai dengan serentet alasan logis dan manusiawi -- tetap saja menyakitkan. Perasaan yang kau alami adalah : kacau, kau ingin mencaci maki tapi kau tak punya wewenang untuk itu. -


That's how I'm feeling..
God, may I be a bit selfish just to run for my own happiness, my really own happiness? :((

You're the one
whom I have no fear to dance with, I love to sing a song for...


You're the one
who's always there for me whenever my heart dials 911...


You're the one
who lends me your shoulder just exactly at the moment my eyes can't hide the tears anymore...


You're the one
who comes as the very first thought in the morning and the last at my nightfall...


You're the one
who makes me become a bit greedy for having you by my side 24/7...


You're the one
whom I always pray the happiness for each night...


You're the one
who never succeed making me hate you just because you ignore and hurt me...


You're the one
who takes away my pains and fears just by one smile, one touch, one word, and one hug..


You're the one
who's behind my tears and smiles..

You're the one
whose heart I treasure the most, arms I found my heaven at, hands I long to hold, lips I'd love to kiss, name I shout loud inside, eyes I see the stars..



Oh God, I hate the way I could never hate you.. I love you more and more each day..
God, if only I could ask for a miracle in my life just once, please make him feel the same way for me from now onwards until forever and a day..

So this I promise u :


~ anytime u feel so lonely, u don't need to look for me.. coz u know i'll always be there for you.. I promise I will not go anywhere without you ~
~ anytime u feel so down, u can always count on me.. my shoulder is forever yours.. I may not always be able to cheer u up, but I promise that I'll help u find a thousand reasons to smile ~
~ anytime u feel stressed out, u can be mad at me.. u can yell at me.. u can speak ur mind to me.. I promise you I'll always let u have me even when u're being the worst version of yourself.. ~
~ anytime u feel happy, I may not be the first person coming to ur mind.. but still u must know, I promise you I'll be always the first person who feels happy for it and struggle for ur happiness, even if it's without me ~
~ anytime u get ur tummy aches, I may not be the doctor who can give u the best medicine.. but I promise you I'll always shower you with my attention and caring ~
~ and if I'm lucky and blessed enough when God let me be the one who builds home with you, who spends the rest of lifetime with you, who dies with you, I'll promise you I give u my life and my death, my love, my prayers, my everything to make you the happiest person in the world ~


I <3 u... ^^

Author : unknown...






Last week, I took my children to a restaurant. My six-year-old son asked if he could say a grace. As we bowed our heads, he said "God is good. God is great. Thank You for the food, and I would even thank You more if mom gets us ice cream for the dessert. And liberty and justice for all! Amen"






Along with the laughters from the other customers nearby, I heard a woman remark "That's what's wrong with this country. Kids don't even know how to pray. Asking God for ice cream! Why? I never!" Hearing this, my son burst into tears and asked me, "Did I do it wrong? Is God mad at me?" As I held him and assured him that he had done a terriffic job and God was certainly not mad at him, and elderly gentleman approached the table. He winked at my son and said, "I happen to know that God thought that was a good prayer." "Really?" my son asked. "Cross my heart."


Then in a theatrical whisper he added (indicating the woman whose remark has started this whole thing), "Too bad she never asks God for ice cream. A little ice cream is good for the soul sometimes."


Naturally, I bought my kids ice cream at the end of the meal. My son stared at his for a moment and did something I will remember the rest of my life. He picked up his sundae and without a word walked over and placed it in front of the woman. With a big smile he told her, "Here, this is for you. Ice cream is good for the soul sometimes. and MY SOUL IS GOOD ALREADY."

ga tw mw tulis apaan...


say big Jia You for Mel aja dehh..


everything must happen for a reason and every single decision must have risks..


let go something you can't change..


you've got to smile even though your heart is crying out loud coz sumtimes smile can become the greatest healing power..

Life is pretty simple..


When you're happy, you sing and you celebrate it..
When you're sad, you cry and you sweat it..
When you're down, you think that you are being the most miserable person..
When you're up, you give your sweetest smile to everybody you meet..


Since the day we were conscious -- when we started to have minds to think --, we've been forced to face life problems.. that was the day that said "Welcome to life, buddy!"...


We do works to solve them out.. some work, most fail... but as the time goes on, life's been teaching us many lessons.. about the glory when we can get what we want.. about how to surrender to God when there's nothing we can do to make it up..


Life's covered by millions of feelings responding to every single thing that happens.. But inside it, the most important things left are the mind and soul which are held steadily...